I couldn't think of anything to say

And so the horses said it for me + Open to the Light Guided Meditation

I couldn’t think of anything to say last week. My mind like static: filled with noise and energy and frantic flickering and flailing and yet, filled with nothing.

And then the sun came out. Oh sweet glorious sun! I know you’ve been there all along and yet, I hate to admit it, I was starting to forget.

And then the light returned. Oh sweet glorious light! I know you never stray too far and yet (I hate to admit it) I was starting to worry.

And slowly I felt myself begin to fill, as nothing was replaced by this sun and light and, well, what else can that be called but life. Filled with song and energy, that wasn’t frantic or flailing at all - it was like floating; dancing really.

And then I thought; surely the words will return also.

I pulled out a chair. I turned my face towards the light. Jez and Skye came immediately to stand with me. Their heads above mine. Their breath, eventually, joining mine. (the other way around really.)

Filled with this much life and surrounded by this much love, surely the words would return now.

I waited. We breathed. I waited some more. But still nothing.

Still.

I couldn’t think of anything to say.

Jez and Skye each let out a soft snort that sounded like, “just breathe.” It sounded a lot like, “It’s ok.”

And so my apologies, I hope it’s ok that I can’t think of anything to say right now.

“Breathe like a fallen leaf and think of nothing. Just breathe and let your heart and mind be carried, however briefly, by the spirit you can't quite see.” Mark Nepo

In the meantime I hope this guided meditation below will help open you up to Spring’s warm light and be;

Still.

I hope it will fill you up with nothing

but Love.

Carolyn 💞